&we'll get lost together, till the light comes pouring through

urgh, i've been such a slacker really. haven't been studying much today, other than mandarin tuition. what is this? SPM is less than 2 weeks away, and here I am wasting my time on the freaking computer. Ahh. But seriously, Sejarah is slowly sucking up all my brain juice, and soon, I'll be left with pretty much nothing in my brain. sigh. it's such a useless subject. All that effort, just for 2 freaking papers? urgh.

We had graduation yesterday. It was surreal, and pretty sad really. I cried at one point okay! ah, i'm such a baby. Earlier this year, I was hoping and praying that everything would just fly by, so that i could just get high school over with, the sooner the better. But yesterday, I was so surprised at how the year went by so quickly. I'm sure gonna miss all my friends, chapel, cf and all that. Prolly even the uniforms! I mean you've got to admit, our school uniforms look way better than most other school uniforms right? Plus, since we're no longer required to wear uniforms for college next year, we're gonna have to pick our outfits everyday! urgh. I would take forever to get ready for classes then.

And Xianwei's speech? needless to say, too much information in one speech. I took quite a while to absorb all that he has revealed to the world in that 5 minutes. haha. But he's a nice little boy. Don't think I will be forgetting about him anytime soon. Alex's speech was pretty alright. Tammy's was pretty long though, but touching, and well written (: Mark's was simply adorable! aww, his first speech! and he had to stop after a while cause he was too nervous. haha. It was so cute.

the eliwelli and juliawulia signature pose (:

He makes me look like I have chubby cheeks. hmph

alex: 'noo, it's so degrading!' HAHA

Deerland +xiaoyun &sammie -lisey. I miss that woman.

And I just realised that we did not take a Shower Angels picture. nooo! eli and xiaoyun! ):

I was just watching Grey's Anatomy on Astro that day, one of the episodes that I've watched before. And Mc Dreamy is sooo cute (:

"I love you. I want to marry you, and grow old with you, and have babies with you. What I want is not 48 uninterrupted hours with you. What I want is a lifetime."

I couldn't help but went 'awww' when I heard it. I can't help it alright. It's so sweet. (: I'm such a sucker for romance. urgh. haha

I appeal to you, brothers,

in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ,

that all of you agree with one another

so that there may be no divisions among you

and that you may be perfectly united

in mind and thought.
1 Corinthians 1:10

Because honey, I'm all out of love

Liverpool lost the game. 5th defeat this season. and lioniepoo isn't really happy about it. neither am I ): what a depressing way to end Halloween, though I didn't realise that it was today, well yesterday but whatever, till my mom brought it up at about 5pm? HAHA.

Letting go.

It's never the easiest thing to do, and for me, it just so happens to be one of the hardest things for me to do, especially when the person I want and NEED to let go, is not helping with the process at all. I don't think this particular person reads blogs, so, I'm safe to rant. I'm so tired of seeing you, thinking about you, and living the guts out of you. I'm sick and tired of YOU. I'm tired that everytime you come back, you demand to see me the minute you land. Has it ever occurred to you that, maybe, for once, I DON'T wanna see you, the main reason being that seeing you, doesn't help with the healing process at all? We definitely shared something really special, but I'm tired, of always putting your happiness before mine, because all you do nowadays, is ask more and more of me, &I've been reluctantly giving in, because you just won't take no for an answer.

Has it ever occurred to you, that maybe, for once, my life isn't about you anymore? Since i made it clear to you 2 years ago, that I don't want to be carrying this burden that I myself, am struggling to carry. You think that my life revolves around you. But the thing is, you're just big headed, and stupid enough to not appreciate someone who earnestly, honestly and genuinely loves you with all her heart. i know, it took me 2 years to let my guard down, to allow you to dwell in a special place in my heart. &the very minute you got me, you threw it all away, just 'cause you were tired of not being able to see me whenever you want. I'm tired of having to compromise everything in my life, in order to make you happy. what happened to the old you? the times when, just the both of us staring at your fishes, was sufficient to make you the happiest man alive?

i miss the times when we could just look at each other without saying anything, cause talking wasn't needed in order for us to communicate with each other. i miss the times when just catching your gaze from across the room, was enough to make my heart beat like how a humingbird flaps its wings.

But the thing is, you're not like that anymore. You're no longer the prince charming I fell in love with. It's funny how a person can change so much in such a short amount of time. The minute your dad announced that he was transferring you to THAT school, I knew that things were going to be different, that things were in fact gonna change for us. But, we've been living in denial, in thinking that we still had a shot in making things right again, just the way they were before. But the thing is, it'll never be the same again, neither will you be. And now that you're THERE, it makes it all the worse.

We can never be the perfect duo we once were, and it took us so long to realise this. After all this mess and mahem, I think it's time I let you go, so that I can have a life of my own, and in the near future, share it with someone else, who would appreciate me like how you used to. I know it's hard, almost impossible to find someone like that, 'cause I know that there's no one else in the world that I would rather be with than you. But we have to face the facts buddy, that maybe WE, were never meant to be, or maybe it's just not our time yet. I know it's hard, but I'm gonna try my best, &I hope you do the same.

thinking of you till it hurts

Today was a good day. (: Thank you God for jam session. Thanks to the worship team, in-coming committee and Tammy too (: I'm gonna miss CF and Chapel alot ): sob.

On a completely different note, English today was pretty fun as well. We did EST! and the answers were all pretty silly. They assume that we think that the milky way comprises of MILK. and, that the moon is triangular. TSK. Then, Zwei spoke up.

Zwei: "Julia, you should make your house sound proof."
Students: "hahahahaha"
Waihwa: "We can totally use her as an example in a physics question lah. 'Suggest what changes could be made to a room next to Julia's.' "
Zwei: "i know, hang curtains, put carpet on the floor and the walls."
'HAHAHAHHAHAHA'

hmph. they're so mean ): alright, i'm sleepy already, so toodles! (:

Foong!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FOONG! (:

Thanks for being a great friend, always listening to my bear problems and what not. You've been a really great friend, funny and silly all the time. You're my Interact laughing buddy! :D Ahh, the Interact days. I'm definitely gonna miss them ): Hope you had fun today! (: (:

and before I forget

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RYAN TAN TI ERN! (:

you're my favourite form 1 boy. I used to dislike you earlier this year though, cause you were being all rude and nasty. But after I got to know you better, I've come to know that you're such a nice little boy. And remember, I'll beat you in Quadropop one day. Just you wait. God bless you Tiern (:

To my absolute favourite form 4 boy (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY QING WEI! (:

see how much i lub you? a whole post just for you. and I coloured your name too! how pretty (: too bad i don't have a picture with you, we shall take one before i leave okay? :D you've been great fun to work with, especially during our I.U Day dance practices! :D Eventhough you and Ding Sheng pissed me off at one point, but we had alot of fun in the end, and you guys made me so proud of the dance (: hope you had a blast today with your ifun and everything :D you're too cute lah. remember me forever okay? :D

Together with eli and gwen, we can make a difference

I just read Eliwelli's blog, about the whole shark's fin thing. It's so cruel, and INHUMANE, what they do to the sharks just to get their fins. So, i vow never to eat shark's fin soup ever again! and there will not be shark's fin soup at my wedding dinner either. so those who want shark's fin soup, you will not be invited for my wedding.

people of the world, especially shark's fin soup lovers, i suggest, wait no, i insist you read eli's blog. and make sure you watch the whole video! you shall be traumatised for life.

oh and my brother bought a gecko a few days ago. it's such a scary looking thing. and he made me touch it! it was simply slimy, nasty and disgusting. but on the bright side, i can say that I've touched a gecko before! eventhough it was just for less than a second, :D